Break Down Here

So this song came out in 2003…and I loved it…but it wasn’t until a year later that I could really relate and understand it. As Frank Ocean once said(and I don’t know if he actually came up with this quote or not) but he said “When you’re happy, you enjoy the music, but when you’re sad, you understand the lyrics.” And this statement is so true and happened with this song in the Winter of 2004. When before mentioned first love broke my heart officially before leaving for a tour in Afghanistan. I felt this song.

Break Down Here – Julie Roberts

And when he got married, I understood these songs.

More Like Her – Miranda Lambert

Didn’t You Know How Much I Loved You – Kellie Pickler

I guess, despite that I am married to an amazing man who is the love of my life…there is still a piece of my heart that hurts from the pain he caused me. Breaking my heart before he left, then getting engaged and married and never once saying anything to me about her and then letting her dictate whether we could still be friends. And we had been best friends for so long. He wasn’t the boy I thought I knew so well.

And maybe I was just too much for him to handle. I’m not quiet, I’m not afraid to share my opinions and I can be crazy and overly passionate. I’m not simple.

Carrie Bradshaw once said, “There are two kinds of girls in the world, the simple girls and the Katie girls…I’m a Katie girl… ”

Some guys just can’t handle a girl like that.

Despite that…

first love

What Hurts The Most Cover by Aaron Lewis


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