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And because Christian Kane!

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Bored stiff

I have been training my replacement for my current job/duties at work and she is doing really well so I am kinda just sitting here getting paid to look over her shoulder and play on my phone. Because I don’t have a computer now she has what was mine. I asked my supervisor about that and he said he would check on getting my computer… I told him she is doing really well and I am really bored. Lol I feel bad, too, because I am not making much of a contribution right now. And the day is going by so slowly. 

My allergies kicked in on Monday and got to be awful. The worst attack I have had in probably 12 years. My nose and my right eye are just running. I haven’t even been ablebto wear make up to work this week because of my eye. Its a little better today, but yesterday was the most miserable day. 

I bought new clothes and shoes this last weekend. I got leggings… I am never wearing real pants again! Lol


I hope everyone had a: 

I am sleepy now because I had a headache and took some benadryl for it. I am still shocked how well that works. I wish I had known that years ago. I would rather be sleepy than have a pounding headache! 

Cant wait for my new schedule to start! 

Oh and I made this the other day. These guys are my top 5… they are my “hall pass” list… my hubby and I each have one. Not that we really would… but its funny. Left to right, in case you don’t know all of them: Tom Hardy, Christian Kane, Eddie Vedder, Jensen Ackles and Chris Hemsworth. Yummy! Lol

Alrighty, I guess that’s it for now… 

More Than I Deserve…

My hubby is definitely more than I deserve, and I love him more than anything. Sometimes I am afraid he’ll wake up one day and realize that he is more than I deserve…and that’s a scary thought. I don’t *really* think that’s going to happen, but sometimes the thought crosses my mind. I didn’t write this, Christian Kane did…and if I recall correctly it was with Steve Carlson…but either way, every time I hear this song…I just think of the fact that, my hubby is more than I deserve and this song is so accurate…

Livin’ with me, it ain’t easy
But I do it every day
Sometimes even now
I wanna run away
But there you are
You’re tryin’ to please me
Yeah you stand your ground
It’s more than I deserve

I’ve taken more than I’ve been givin’
I’ve taken for granted this life I’m livin’
I don’t know why heaven above
Blessed me with your sweet love
Though I never tell you what you’re worth
It’s more than I deserve

I love my husband more than anything, and I hope he does know that. I do tell him, but I hope he knows it’s true and honest and I’m not just saying it because that’s what you do…

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On another note, HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY to all the moms out there…whether I know you or not, thank you for all that you do for your children.

This is a four generations picture, my mamaw on my left(right of the photo), my mom on my right(left of the photo), myself(center), and my baby girl in front of me. It was a nice day with family. ❤ ❤ ❤

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Feeling better…

Aside from still having the headache…I feel a lot better. Think I might go take a hot shower before bed…but I think it was like a 24 hour flu bug or something. I just spent a good portion of the day in bed…took some advil for the aches and finally ate a little bit.

Been working on posting some of my creative work. Two poems and a couple fanfics…my CK one and my Vedder one…oh how I love those men…lol

Click the link Musings above if you’re interested!

Been watching Leverage, I needed a good dose of CK. ❤ ❤ ❤

Nightmarish…

Hubby just called, and his dad and step mom are still being ridiculous, I’m not speaking to them right now. And i did tell them what my issues are…they are judgey and preachy and make me feel like they don’t think I’m good enough at all for their family. It’s like they look down on me. I’ve told them this is how I feel in a very detailed manner and gave reasons why…they have no bothered to return the courtesy, so I am not speaking to them. Then he step mom was in town for a conference and I was sick AF with a migraine. I spent 5 hours in the ER to get treated for the damn thing…and I had just gotten home and was sitting in the recliner not talking, lights off still and looking for something mind numbing to watch on Netflix. she dropped by and was talking to Jason and Chyann for a few…asked how I was feeling and that was it I answered and said not good…and then she went home and bitched to my FIL that I didn’t speak to her and I was “Playing on my phone.” I wasn’t on my phone I was on the computer, and I felt like shit after 5 hours in the ER with the worst fucking migraine I’ve had in like 5 years. So sue me! They bitch to him about me like that but won’t address anything directly with me…and the things they bitch about…are a direct reflection of the way they treat me…if they don’t treat me like I’m good enough for their family, why would I want to engage with them???

His mom and step dad on the other hand are great! So down to earth and chill and. honestly, I prefer spending time with them.

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Also I just wanted to mention, if you see any mention of Taylor in previous posts, that is my former best friend and I ended the friendship because she was an awful friend. And I don’t know why I didn’t do it sooner. Instead I let it drag out for 20 years. And now, I feel so much better since I ended it. 20 years is way too long to try and make a friendship work or home someone will change. People don’t change unless they want to and she doesn’t because she thinks she does nothing wrong. She thinks I’m the one who is ridiculous for wanting her to treat me better as her best friend. She is self absorbed and when I tell her she’s not being a good friend, she says “I have a lot going on in my life right now.” Yeah all of which is going well for you, I have a lot of shit and I’m still a better friend. So whatever. It’s done.

I am freezing…gotta put my jacket back on. I hate that my desk is so close to the damn warehouse, I can’t wait until it’s not anymore…UGH this promotion is taking forever to get here….lol I’m so excited I just want to train my replacement, change my schedule and start my new job. Kevin still hasn’t made a decision on the new me yet though…

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So I didn’t sleep for shit last night, and it was because I kept waking up from nightmares. I can’t figure out why…I only remember two of them. And they were both Lucid dreams, which for those who don’t know means you are asleep and dreaming but completely aware of it and can even feel things in the dreams at times, but you are completely unable to wake yourself…and anytime I have a nightmare it’s a lucid one.

The first was that I met my hubby at a shoe store. And when he stood up and turned around to look at me something awful had happened to his right eye. It was all bloody and like part of it cut off and hanging on by a tread…and I do mean part of the eyeball….and what so bad here is that eye trauma makes me, not just squeamish, but completely FTFO! I just can’t handle it. Seeing it or hearing about it….i can’t do it, it makes my skin crawl.

The next was the last one I had before I woke up this morning and actually got out of bed. No part of this was based in reality at all…I was walking down the street of my neighborhood with an old lady from my block, very sweet little thing. She stumbled and collapsed in another neighbor’s driveway. I rushed to her to help her up but she was unconscious or dead…I’m not sure which because of what happened next. The garage door opened up and the guy that lived there was a cop, guy looks just like the actor Nestor Carbonell. He comes out of the garage and I start to try to explain what happened. He rips his uniform shirt off literally popping buttons and throws it and then takes off his white under shirt and throws it and he is looking crazed as hell and he reaches into his garage and grabs a machete and starts stalking towards me and I run. Leaving the old woman there. He stalks a long slowly after me and I am freaking. I run into my garage which is open and for some dumb reason that’s where I hide. I drops to my stomach and hide under a bunch of empty cardboard boxes. I think my hubby and I had just moved in, he is not home right now though. The cop comes to the old lady’s driveway and gets in her car and hot wires it or something and he sets the thing on fire from the inside and then pushes it or rolls it, whatever down to my driveway. I’m under all the boxes shaking like a leaf but I can see out through a crack between two of them, and I see the car roll up on fire and then I see him stalking closer still carrying the machete towards me and coming up towards my garage. I’m trembling like crazy afraid he’s going to find me and I shut my eyes tight to try to focus and stop trembling. But doesn’t happen. Then the boxes start moving and uncovering me and I open my eyes and scream but it’s not him, it’s my hubby. Who is not Jason, but instead Christian Kane, and he looks at me imploringly and I lunge at him and hug him and that’s when I woke up, completely out of breath just like I was in the dream. I felt everything all the real emotion, the sweating, the terror and the relief.

So I have no idea what caused all of this, but yeah…it sucked.

Wreck Me…

So I’ve always had a crush on Tom Hardy…well for years anyway since I first saw him….but I think he just shot to the number one spot on my Hall Pass card…lol I mean HOLY shit…those lips, I could kiss them for days, his smile! Those “come fuck me eyes”, that body! And the fact that that body is covered in ink!!!! He is THE sexiest brit, and I am officially fangirling. OMG! lol

Out of boredom yesterday morning, I posted a pic I found on google of him and Jason Statham, and said someone need to make a movie with both of them TAKE MY MONEY NOW! And that effing pic got 300 likes as of this morning…WTF? lol, I have never gotten that many likes on IG! Insane!
I found a post too, that said “Things I need inside me” and had a pic of chocolate cake, champagne and Tom Hardy…I died! lol I was like forget the chocolate and the bubbly…just give me him! YES PLEASE!

The three Men that I find the most attractive…out of celebs….could not be more different!!!
Left to right: Tom Hardy, Eddie Vedder and Christian Kane…
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I slept maybe 2-3 hours last night. I just couldn’t make myself. I was so effing tired, but I couldn’t ass out. I think I am just too antsy in my pantsy about my tattoo tomorrow…hehe but I am so damn tired now…I may have to nap later if my body and mind will let me.

I made the most amazing playlist on my amazon music yesterday…Pop Divas: Pink, Gaga, Miley, Mo(Madonna), Gwen, Britney, Avril, Kesha and Mariah. I wish I had more Miley on it…they only have one album from her on Prime though…yes, I am a grunge queen, and I still love POP DIVAS!!! lol Prince and MJ are two of my faves as well…kissed the ground they walked on!

And I am a HUGE advocate for Miley and Liam…I love them! lol I’m a self proclaimed Hemsworthian, as I freaking adore both brothers(they got the looks, as there is a 3rd Hemsworth boy, the oldest actually, and he is ok…but no where near as beautiful as Chris and Liam….lol) Anywho I love both, and I effing love Miley since she was Hannah(I had to watch it with my daughter) and she is a bit crazy but totally has more talent in her little finger than most of today’s pop girls…like Nikki Minaj, Iggy Azalea and Ariana Grande…those three are talentless, auto-tuned twats! lol

I’m not opinionated at all! lol The more you read of my blog, you’ll learn I’m full of opinions and love to share them! lol My mouth often lands me in hot water…has my whole life! lol

OH Speaking of opinions…so I am a BIG Dutch Bros fan…I love them, I have a deal with my hubby that I get to go every Friday on my way to work…well I went yesterday and instead of my usual iced Rebel I decided to try the blended Rebel, so I asked the guy, is it like a slushie?(the pic on the menu looks like a slushie) he says, now imagine this in a stupid flatbiller voice, “No it’s more like a…smoothie…yeah a smoothie.” So I went with it anyway, because I was like no way because there is no milk or fruit in it…So I get it…yeah…it’s a fucking slushie. Dumbass clearly has no idea what a slushie or a smoothie actually is…I love DB but the kids they hire to be their baristas are dumber than a box of hammers…that is ALWAYS my experience… Like if someone told me “Oh I’m a barista at Dutch Bros…” my first thought would be “Oh I’m so sorry you couldn’t get into college…” Yeah that level of stupid! Now I am sure not ALL of them are, but the ones here in Salem ARE! So I tagged them in a post on IG and told them they need to educate their baristas…lol

I also have an actual tentative date for Jeanne to start training with me…March 28th. Hopefully that sticks! lol It could be another week after that…but I am really hoping for the 28th, as I am antsy AF to start my new job and schedule!

So I am so bummed…I wanted to add Ashlee Simpson to my Pop Divas list but she’s not Prime…and you’re probably thinking HA, you just bashed those other three for being auto-tuned hacks and Ashlee was caught lip syncing…lol Yes she was…but she did that(as do a lot of performers sadly, out of nerves and wanting to sound good for a recorded show….but in reality she is very talented…I think even more so than her sister.

So I must re-pierce my nose…see I had it done, but I was out of work and having a hard time landing anything…so I took it out thinking that might help, and then I got the call to be a temp at my job now and found out they’re ok with ink and piercings…but it was too late to get it back in…an now I really miss it and want it back…. 😦 It was so cute on me…especially the little silver ring…I had my lip pierced briefly too, a reverse labret, but it wouldn’t heal so I took it out…It was sad, because it was sexy AF too…lol I’ve tried to have my cartilage on my ear done twice, but it won’t heal either. My nose didn’t heal the first time I did it when I was like 25, but the second time I was told the proper way to care for it…she knew her shit…the first guy he also did my kitty cross bones tattoo…and he was a total fucking tool…I always told people not to go to him. He was a moron and had WAY too big of an ego and thought his work was the best…it was mediocre…I’m not happy with that tattoo and am considering a cover up…at the very least having something better done to it…it’s shit! lol OH and I just went on yelp and shared my OPINION of him!!! lol I’m kind of a bitch! haha

Anywho I gotta get ready for the Chiro…shower and all that jazz….