It’s been a crappy day…

I am just irritable AF…everyone and everything is annoying me today and I’m at work and have to keep smiling, though I’ve been on the verge of tears several different times…I have an IUD so I don’t get a period anymore, but I swear I must be PMSing….

My arch-nemesis…IE the one single driver I can’t stand because he yelled at me when I was trying to help him came in a little bit ago. I still won’t talk to him outside of what is required to do my job. But he comes in and puts his stuff on the counter…he pulled out his keys from his pocket and sets them down along with a quarter, a nickel and a penny…and says “Everything but the change.” Really, you asshat, you think I want your dirty change? WTF am I going to do with 31 cents??? He’s such an idiot….he got in trouble for talking to me that way and still has never apologized, I’ve had other drivers snap at me over the phone too, but usually within 5 minutes they call me right back and apologize…but him, it’s been like 6 months or something and still nothing. I’m over it…but really how big of an ego do you have to have that you get written up for something and still can’t admit you were wrong…?

Whatever. I’m just irritated about everything.

 

I can’t wait to go home tonight. I have acupuncture tomorrow and I pretty much plan on spending the weekend doing a whole lot of nothing important but fun stuff instead…like journaling, blogging, reading my Buddhism books and watching Doctor Who…and probably working on my Vedder Fic…yup.

Not too much adulting this weekend! lol

So I have this statement piece that I love, and got at Saturday Market in Portland. It’s a ring made out of the handle of a spoon or fork.
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It has cranes on it…so in my new spiritual quest I decided to look up the symbolism of cranes and found a lot of cool info:

“Crane

The crane’s fidelity and mating rituals make it a common symbol for loyalty and successful marriage. Its fabled long life span also makes it a symbol of longevity.

The crane is a popular symbol in Asian culture, and the practice of folding paper cranes for good fortune, healing, happiness, and success was popularized by Sadako Sasaki, a young victim of the radiation from the Hiroshima disaster. Chains of paper cranes, often numbering a thousand in total, are given as offerings at temples and shrines. The crane is also perceived as a bird capable of flying to the very heavens, and is said to have borne spirits of the deceased there upon its back. In ancient China, the crane was used as the symbol of highest-ranking officials.

The longevity of the crane may also have caused it to be associated with a family tree or lineage. Our word pedigree may come from the French word for “foot of the crane,” or pied de grue. Legend has it that the crane’s legs grow before its wings do, suggesting that the bird has a strong tie to the ground. The crane is also associated with vigilance; it was said to keep watch on one leg while holding a stone in the other foot. The stone would drop if the crane dozed off, waking it and its companions. Heraldry (the art of designing and displaying coats of arms and other devices that identify a family or group) often shows the crane holding a stone in this way, symbolizing alertness.

In one of Aesop’s fables, a peacock laughs at the duller crane. The crane admits that it may not be as visually stunning as the peacock, but it has the capability to soar to the very heavens, whereas the peacock is stuck on the ground. The moral of the story is the commonly repeated adage,
“Fine feathers do not make a fine bird.” In Celtic myth, the crane bag, made from the skin of a crane, held many of the treasures precious to the Irish god Mannanan. One of these treasures may have been the staves of ogham, a rune-like system of writing or divination whose shapes are sometimes compared to the sticklike shape of a crane’s legs.

Omens and divinatory meaning: If you see a crane flying, it may be drawing your eyes to the heavens, lifting your spirits, and inspiring you to trust in the universe. If you see it standing, it may be advising vigilance and alertness.”
Source: http://www.beliefnet.com/wellness/environment/galleries/a-spiritual-field-guide-to-birds.aspx?p=6

I thought that was all really cool.

I am so bored at work, I guess I should start getting key sheets ready…but the light duty guy is STILL putting keys away…it’s like DANG! lol I think he’s just being super careful.

Anyway, back to work….

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Long week…

Been a long ass week.
Sunday I had to drive to Southern Oregon to take Chyann’s sister back to her dad. That was a long ass 5 hours, there and back. I almost fell asleep, I swear!
Monday I had to leave work early because of a migraine.
Tuesday I worked an extra hour to make up time, but was headache free.
Wednesday I woke with another migraine at around 2:30, it was finally gone around 13:00.
Thursday I worked an extra hour and then at home, I went and got dinner last night for Chyann and I at this local mexican place, Tony’s Taco Shop…which I love, and I had a burrito and donuts for dessert(as J had bought a bucket(yes you read that right) of Voodoo Doughnuts)…I was feeling fine when I went to bed, then woke up at 2am sick as hell and spent 30 mins puking my guts out in the bathroom. And I’m not the kind of person who can puke just because they need to…nope, I have to physically stick a finger down my throat and gag myself. Yeah last night was fun!
Today, it is windy AF out and has caused all kinds of problems everywhere. Took me 45 mins to get to work which usually takes 25. I get here and our system is down, internet, and everything we use is internet based, so we are dead in the water. We have no way of tracking anyone, so it finally comes back up at like 10:40 and then lasts about 20 minutes and we lose EVERYTHING, Power, phones, internet, back up generator kicks on but phones are still dead for 20 mins…then it comes back up again…and so far it’s working.
I have to work tomorrow too…to make up time for Monday….BLAH!

BUT…really cool news, I finally caved, and tomorrow after I work, I have my first acupuncture appointment. I am hoping maybe it will bring some relief for these headaches.
My Sleep study PART 2 isn’t until May 25th, and I’m not seeing my headache doctor again until June 5th, kind of frustrated about that because its so damn far away, and I want to talk to my headache doctor about new meds because these aren’t working. I want to see if she can prescribe Benadryl injections for migraine treatment when I get one because at the ER they gave me that and it worked to break one I’d had for 3 days straight.

So Chyann is being treated like an adult now…we’re doing this experiment for the next 3 months and see how things go…so until the 4th of July…at least. She wants to be an adult and make adult type decisions that she really is not prepared for…then she can do that and also make all her other decisions and deal with any consequences that arise on her own. We are out of ideas on how else to get through to her. I mean when you’ve tried everything, literally EVERYTHING and she just won’t get with it, or even act like she gives a shit…then you have to get extreme. One of my drivers said not to feel bad about doing it…it’s just some tough love and sometimes that’s what you have to do. I talk to them a lot. Most of them are good guys.

Yesterday though, one called in ANGRY and left an anon voicemail for the router who routed his route yesterday….to say this vm was colorful is a VAST understatement, it was OUTRIGHT offensive and completely uncalled for because it wasn’t the router’s fault this time. Anyway, The routers came and got me because I talk to the driver’s most often and asked me if I would know the voice from listening to the voicemail and I said probably. And I did….so I had to identify the driver, and I like the guy, but he is a hot head…and what he did was completely inappropriate…even if it had been routing’s fault…(which I will admit, most of the time it is). However, this time there was nothing routed badly, he just got behind so one of his stops wouldn’t take him during their lunch rush and when he went back to that stop he was 3.5 hours behind. This was his own doing though….or from some sort of circumstances which had nothing to do with the way he was routed…he’s going to get written up, most likely suspended and possibly even fired. It’s like really, was it work that?

My MIL, the one I like and get along with sent my daughter and I some little trinkets from a trip to Sedona, AZ with her sister.
I am in love with this ring!
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Ghostbeads, these are a Navajo tradition, they are believed to protect you from evil spirits.
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Then I made this today for Foxy Friday, because tom Hardy is THE FOX! You know I love him! hehe And I was bored while the system at work was down…lol
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And now I have to pee, so I’m gonna go do that…lol