Been a little while…

So a bunch of crap going on with my daughter still.

Found out my Pearl Piggy, my ACD, is deaf. She is my little love! We are going to start working with hand signals to train her. We kinda thought she just didn’t inherit the Heeler intelligence because she is a mix. And I told some people that and that we thought that because after 2 years she didn’t know her name still. They suggested she might be deaf. That thought had never even crossed our minds, because she reacts to things. But we discovered after watching her, she reacts when she sees Autzen, our other dog react, or because she can feel a vibration, such as the vibration when one of our cars pulls up in the driveway. so the vet did some tests yesterday and said her ears flinched but there was no other reaction so he thinks she can hear some frequency but most likely is nearly completely deaf. Someone else told me she needs to be BAER tested, but that really only determines just HOW deaf she is…we already know she is deaf…and it makes so much sense now why she has been so hard to train. I feel the BAER test would just be a waste of money. I don’t really care HOW deaf she is, I just know she is deaf.


And I got my Pearl Jam tattoo completed. I added Stickman to my three crooked hearts. โค



Wreck Me…

So I’ve always had a crush on Tom Hardy…well for years anyway since I first saw him….but I think he just shot to the number one spot on my Hall Pass card…lol I mean HOLY shit…those lips, I could kiss them for days, his smile! Those “come fuck me eyes”, that body! And the fact that that body is covered in ink!!!! He is THE sexiest brit, and I am officially fangirling. OMG! lol

Out of boredom yesterday morning, I posted a pic I found on google of him and Jason Statham, and said someone need to make a movie with both of them TAKE MY MONEY NOW! And that effing pic got 300 likes as of this morning…WTF? lol, I have never gotten that many likes on IG! Insane!
I found a post too, that said “Things I need inside me” and had a pic of chocolate cake, champagne and Tom Hardy…I died! lol I was like forget the chocolate and the bubbly…just give me him! YES PLEASE!

The three Men that I find the most attractive…out of celebs….could not be more different!!!
Left to right: Tom Hardy, Eddie Vedder and Christian Kane…
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I slept maybe 2-3 hours last night. I just couldn’t make myself. I was so effing tired, but I couldn’t ass out. I think I am just too antsy in my pantsy about my tattoo tomorrow…hehe but I am so damn tired now…I may have to nap later if my body and mind will let me.

I made the most amazing playlist on my amazon music yesterday…Pop Divas: Pink, Gaga, Miley, Mo(Madonna), Gwen, Britney, Avril, Kesha and Mariah. I wish I had more Miley on it…they only have one album from her on Prime though…yes, I am a grunge queen, and I still love POP DIVAS!!! lol Prince and MJ are two of my faves as well…kissed the ground they walked on!

And I am a HUGE advocate for Miley and Liam…I love them! lol I’m a self proclaimed Hemsworthian, as I freaking adore both brothers(they got the looks, as there is a 3rd Hemsworth boy, the oldest actually, and he is ok…but no where near as beautiful as Chris and Liam….lol) Anywho I love both, and I effing love Miley since she was Hannah(I had to watch it with my daughter) and she is a bit crazy but totally has more talent in her little finger than most of today’s pop girls…like Nikki Minaj, Iggy Azalea and Ariana Grande…those three are talentless, auto-tuned twats! lol

I’m not opinionated at all! lol The more you read of my blog, you’ll learn I’m full of opinions and love to share them! lol My mouth often lands me in hot water…has my whole life! lol

OH Speaking of opinions…so I am a BIG Dutch Bros fan…I love them, I have a deal with my hubby that I get to go every Friday on my way to work…well I went yesterday and instead of my usual iced Rebel I decided to try the blended Rebel, so I asked the guy, is it like a slushie?(the pic on the menu looks like a slushie) he says, now imagine this in a stupid flatbiller voice, “No it’s more like a…smoothie…yeah a smoothie.” So I went with it anyway, because I was like no way because there is no milk or fruit in it…So I get it…yeah…it’s a fucking slushie. Dumbass clearly has no idea what a slushie or a smoothie actually is…I love DB but the kids they hire to be their baristas are dumber than a box of hammers…that is ALWAYS my experience… Like if someone told me “Oh I’m a barista at Dutch Bros…” my first thought would be “Oh I’m so sorry you couldn’t get into college…” Yeah that level of stupid! Now I am sure not ALL of them are, but the ones here in Salem ARE! So I tagged them in a post on IG and told them they need to educate their baristas…lol

I also have an actual tentative date for Jeanne to start training with me…March 28th. Hopefully that sticks! lol It could be another week after that…but I am really hoping for the 28th, as I am antsy AF to start my new job and schedule!

So I am so bummed…I wanted to add Ashlee Simpson to my Pop Divas list but she’s not Prime…and you’re probably thinking HA, you just bashed those other three for being auto-tuned hacks and Ashlee was caught lip syncing…lol Yes she was…but she did that(as do a lot of performers sadly, out of nerves and wanting to sound good for a recorded show….but in reality she is very talented…I think even more so than her sister.

So I must re-pierce my nose…see I had it done, but I was out of work and having a hard time landing anything…so I took it out thinking that might help, and then I got the call to be a temp at my job now and found out they’re ok with ink and piercings…but it was too late to get it back in…an now I really miss it and want it back…. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ It was so cute on me…especially the little silver ring…I had my lip pierced briefly too, a reverse labret, but it wouldn’t heal so I took it out…It was sad, because it was sexy AF too…lol I’ve tried to have my cartilage on my ear done twice, but it won’t heal either. My nose didn’t heal the first time I did it when I was like 25, but the second time I was told the proper way to care for it…she knew her shit…the first guy he also did my kitty cross bones tattoo…and he was a total fucking tool…I always told people not to go to him. He was a moron and had WAY too big of an ego and thought his work was the best…it was mediocre…I’m not happy with that tattoo and am considering a cover up…at the very least having something better done to it…it’s shit! lol OH and I just went on yelp and shared my OPINION of him!!! lol I’m kind of a bitch! haha

Anywho I gotta get ready for the Chiro…shower and all that jazz….


I am up way to goddamned early!!! I woke up at 5:30 having to pee and with another headache. I took some excedrin and laid back down and tried to go back to sleep, but was unsuccessful. I did rub my muscles out though and the headache is gone, but rubbing and stretching my muscles seems to have made me very nauseous. I tried to eat a bowl of cereal, I might have gotten halfway through but it’s making me more sick to my stomach because it’s too sweet, and it’s not even that sweet! So I am up way too early, with nothing to do, because I don’t have to be at work for 3 hours, and so here I am.

I’m going to cease wearing make up to work until I get these headaches figured out because yesterday I wore make up and I had to go wash it off in the bathroom with shitty hand soap…yeah try getting waterproof eye liner and mascara off with that shit…it wasn’t easy. I looked like a raccoon for a good 10 minutes before I was able to get it all off. The soap dried out my face too. So yeah no more make up until I got this shit under control! Which is sd because I love my make up….lol

But after I washed my face, I put eye drops in and took a couple puffs off my inhaler, and then I put keys away, and all that combined seemed to help my neck and shoulders relax. See to put keys away I am standing for an extended amount of time which means up right, good posture, shoulders back, but not tensed. So it helped and the inhaler relaxed my chest. So I am kinda wondering if my asthma is worsening with this shit.

Last night I was trying to talk to my bestie…but it got frustrating, and I was like WTF? Then she tells me “I’ve been drinking” *insert eyeroll* Thanks for the warning. I told her next time let me know in advance and I won’t text you. I don’t do well with drunk people anymore. They are no longer my brethren. I don’t drink. For multiple reasons. A) It all gives me a migraine. B) I got really sick off Whiskey and have had two drinks in the years since because the look and smell of alcohol just turns my stomach(I can’t even look at a bottle of Whiskey anymore without nearly vomiting.). C) I just don’t like the feeling of being drunk anymore. So being totally sober and dealing with drunk people in person or just via text is frustrating as fuck, and I’m like…good lord, was I like that? lol My hubby drinks, but only a little, and he never gets drunk…maybe a smidge tipsy…but that’s it. Never once have I seen him drunk. Probably because of his size and everything, it would take A LOT for him to actually get drunk. Plus he is a commercial driver so he can’t drink very often, or it wouldn’t have time to get out of his system before he had to drive and he is very serious about not risking his CDL, because that’s what takes care of us…along with my job…lol

So Kevin told me yesterday that Jeanne might be starting next week. It depends on if the front desk replacement feels trained and ready to be on her own. Then will start training her for my position, I will train her how to do the tracking, and late route notifications, as well as the layover tracking. Also putting away keys and prepping them for the next day. And MAYBE teach her how to check in backhauls so we have some more help with that. And I will show her some of how to help and assist drivers with scanners/printers and how to help when they call and how to support the supervisors when they need it. I will however, remain the keymaster, and in charge of that aspect of the key room, because too many hands in the pot creates a mess, and I’ve been training on keys for 2 years. But I will begin doing things other than all that…in safety and being a liaison between drivers and HR for FMLA, Workers Comp, disability…etc. And who knows what else. ๐Ÿ™‚ Also Kevin told me they are going to expend the area where our admins sit and put a desk in there for me. It’s in the Ops office, but not in the key room. So I will join everyone else even more and have my own desk I don’t have to share with anyone anymore. So I can finally decorate it with pics and stuff. WOOT!

2 days until my tattoos. I am so excited, I can’t contain myself…lol
(wanted to post the pic I used for my IG countdown today, but photobucket is a POS)
I used the cover of the director’s cut of “Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels”…I’m being creative with my countdown.
10 – Tenth Doctor(my fave)
9 – the movie Nine poster
8 – Lane Frost(he was a bull rider, and they have to stay on the bull for 8 seconds)
7 – Rule #7 by CK
6 – Six from Blossom
5 – Party of Five cast
4 – the 4 pics of Marilyn Monroe by Andy Warhol
3 – Three’s Company Cast
2 – Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
……….have to wait and see what the next two pics are, and yes I already have 1 picked out and Tattoo Day picked out. lol
I am so antsy in my pantsy for Sunday to get here! One of my hostlers/shuttle drivers, Roger, asked me yesterday if I had any big plans for the weekend, and I said I am getting new tattoos this weekend. :-p Then I got to tell him of what…lol

Just realized some of this post is a repeat from yesterday…lol OH WELL. I guess I just couldn’t remember because of how shitty I felt when I wrote it.

If you like either of these music genres or not(country/folk) you have to listen to these two songs to know what Portland Oregon is like…these are two of my all time fave songs:
Portland, OR by Loretta Lynn and Jack White

September in Seattle by Shawn Mullins

I want the line: Portland is a small town with a bitter city smile. as a tattoo.

Those two songs are love! lol

PHOTOBUCKET is pissing me off…two days now I can’t upload photos. So I can’t share any here or on the PJ forum…and their site help says they’re working on it. Really? You can’t figure out why it is auto logging people off when they click upload???? Seriously Photobucket, get your shit together!

EDIT: because this song just came on iTunes and YOU HAVE TO HEAR IT! It’s EPIC. Steve Carlson did this song for a Funny or Die entry. I really don’t know how he was ever able to film this and sing it without dying laughing all the way through…


So yesterday, Kevin came in and asks me, “Does Desirae have a cabinet in here?” I said Yup, he asked, “is it locked?” I said Nope. He said find a box and pack her stuff up and take it to the front desk.

HE MADE MY FUCKING DAY!!! I was doing a happy dance the rest of the day…it was awesome. hehe BITCH IS GONE!!! And they are instead filling the night time position with one of our drivers and he will do what Kyle used to do, which is what she was supposed to be doing as well as Tractor/Trailer assignments…and other night time stuff. And I think that the one they chose is a good fit!

I’m still however waiting for my replacement to start so I can train her and move into my new spot….

9 days until new ink!!! I can’t wait, single digits now!!!

On IG today I had to block 2 tattoo pages for bashing me on my own posts, saying my CK lyrics tattoo is tacky. One of them is actually a tattoo artist and his shit was amateur at best! I had some asshat bash my bipolar tattoo before too saying it looked like shit and was a stupid reason to get a tattoo because being bipolar isn’t something to be proud of or flaunt. I was like FUCK YOU! I’m proud of battling this fucking thing every day and I flaunt it so I can spread awareness and educate people so why don’t you get off your high fucking horse and drop dead! I mean really, has no one ever taught these people that if you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t say anything at all? I mean sure we all say mean or bad things sometimes, but if you’re just outright going to bash something someone is displaying proudly then why don’t you just keep your goddamn comments to yourself. I mean a tattoo of something cliche for no reason at all is fantastic…but how dare someone actually put thought and stories behind their ink. You know opinions are like assholes, everyone has them, but they don’t need to be on display.

I do need some touch ups on some of my ink though….but unfortunately Joanne doesn’t work on Sundays, or I would hit her up while I’m there for this upcoming appointment.

Listening to PJ….I’m so fucking tired I could sleep for days! lol

Found out this morning that a coworker up in customer service lost her daughter yesterday to a fatal car accident. Kay brought a card down for everyone to sign, I quoted my favorite song about loss, Light Years by Pearl Jam.
“We were but stones, your light made us stars…” Cherish the light she brought to your life. Love and Prayers, Mandy

We are Dobby…

And Master has given us a sock…

That implies exactly what you think it does. Keyton is gone. And we are finally going to get back to our regularly scheduled lives. The move went fine, he took it well and I believe is going to be the happiest kid ever now.

We saw Ace Frehley the other night and it was a pretty awesome show. I wore my new Ace Frehley shirt yesterday and while we are dropping Keyton off, my uncle is there to see him before he has to go back to work. He says to me, “Since when are you an Ace Frehley fan?”
I wanted to snap back at him, “like you would know anything I’m a fan of right now. Considering the giant dick you’ve been to me for a year and a half. You really shouldn’t pretend to know anything about me anymore.” Instead I was polite and just said I saw him last night.

So I have made up my mind about my tattoo of Tabby Lu. I kept trying to add more detail but kept coming back to this really simple drawing of her face. I did this last night and then I want to have her eyes and nose done in that watercolor style. Her eyes were greenish gold and her nose was kind of a salmon color…like orangish pink. I love this drawing so much because I just see her squishie little face staring out at me from it.

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I am laying in bed still… Considering getting up and starting chores. I am just so exhausted…its going to take a while for me to recoup.

Oh and if you have Netflix and like weird… You should totally start that new Drew Barrymore and Timothy Olyphant show “Santa Clarita Diet”. It is fantastic!